A few days ago I had a medical event that turned out to be non-life threatening but of course, you don’t know that at the time. At the time you think you’re dizzy because your sugar has dropped. At the time you think things are getting worse because you’ve not eaten well. Then when you start to see double and your skin turns hot and the sweat starts to bead on your skin, fear begins to take hold. I’ve dealt with panic attacks in the past and I knew this was not one of them. Seeing that my blood sugar was normal, my incredible wife made food for me at nearly midnight. I struggled to eat, figuring the food would help my body calm down. I felt nauseous and then parts of my skin felt numb then pins and needles. Things were not going in the right direction so my wife called an ambulance and we headed to the ER in search of answers.

Roughly four to five hours later I was home. With a heart attack and stroke ruled out the next treatment was to focus on the dizziness. Last year an ENT figured that my loss of hearing in my right ear could have been one of three things. He mentioned Meniers Disease first but said that it typically had more severe forms of vertigo. Apparently, I am now acquainted with the more severe form of vertigo.

The conversation

The next day I shared with my wife about the ride to the hospital. As I was telling her this, the song above came on. It’s one of my favorites from The Prince of Egypt. It reminded me of another conversation I had in the back of the ambulance.

Remember at this time I don’t know that everything is going to be ok. While I was concerned I wasn’t in a state of panic or fear. There was a time when I would have been off my rocker with madness. When I noticed my right arm starting to feel numb I started talking to Jesus. I told Him that if this was my time for us to meet forever that I was ready. I thanked Him for my wife and my girls, and I hoped I’d done right with what I’d been given. And that I trusted Him to take care of them if my time with them was up.

As I was sharing this with my wife I told her that I wasn’t afraid. I knew that God would find a way. I explained that I think I loved the music so much and the artwork with it because it shows God making a way. The nation of Israel was caught between Pharoe’s army and an impassable sea. Our God makes a way for them to pass on dry land. When it came to the impassable gap that existed between Creator and creation because of sin, God Himself came and died on the cross and makes a way back to His Kingdom, back to Him.

Let Him make a way

Perhaps sometimes I am too reserved in sharing my faith. I don’t shrink from it, but I don’t know that I go out of my way either. This is something I’ll need to work on in the days to come. I do know that God always makes a way for us to come back to Him. I like the example that was given during a sermon one time that said if God is distant, it’s you that’s running. Maybe you need to turn and run to Him. Maybe you need to just stand still by being open to Him coming to you. Either way, let Him make a way for you today and follow it. I’m not suggesting it’ll always be easy, but I can promise it’ll be good.